Marti Abernathey

Speaking of Daphne, I talked to her on Friday. Daphne as been around my LJ for a pretty long time. She’s just as I thought she’d be, funny, witty, and full of passion (and other expandables). What I realized is that she shares something with my Second Life love, R. R and J (R’s husband) probably wouldn’t find much in common with Daphne and her husband. What similarity do I see in both couples?

In every picture, story, or mention, you can see the love, the companionship, and friendship just pouring out. I don’t know her husband well, but anyone that dresses up like one of Mario Brothers for the fun of it, I have an automatic affinity for. The commonality I felt with both couples are:

Contentment. Laughter. Playfulness. Smiles. Joy. Gratefulness. Depth. A genuine sweetness. Most of all, I felt a very giving, trusting, and open love.

I never really put this together until last night, while hanging out with R&J. I realized that this kind of love of life and person, I’ve not felt those feelings since I was a kid. The family alcoholism, the drama marriages, and many other painful traumas have caused me to stop believing in that such relationships exist. I’ve hardened my heart to the possibility, frankly. I’m thankful that both R and Daphne are in my consciousness right now, to shine as examples of this kind of love.

R, is really the genesis of this introspective moment. I won’t really discuss the event that made this come to light, because it’s highly personal and frankly too intimate for me to feel comfortable sharing here. I can say that she peered into my soul and poured her heart out to me in such a beautiful gift. I will treasure that gift for the rest of my life.

I have to wonder if the lack of belief has caused me to seek out love that was negative and co-dependent instead of their kind of love? I’m not really sure, but it’s something I keep rolling over in my head. I get the feeling that my movement toward a life of positive growth has allowed me see their examples.

Regardless, I’m grateful for you both. You bring me hope.

I recently talked to an internets friend on the phone. She lives in Saskatoon, Saskatchewan. She made mention of us hanging out if I ever got up to her neck of the woods. So I go over to google maps… and this comes up:

First of all, what’s up with North Dakota? I think google maps is trying to tell me something

I get frustrated because I don’t take any road trips anymore. Even though I owned a motorcycle in my youth, I’m not a big fan of them. But I’m seriously thinking of buying one so I can make road trips without a huge cost of gas and mileage on a car (you can pick up a smaller cc bike for under $2000 usd that gets 60 -70 mpg).

I keep looking back and reexamining different aspects of my life. Recently, that introspection has been on my choice of music. I’ve noticed lately that either I’m growing senile, or my music snobishness has subsided a bit with age. Bands that I passed over, for one reason or another, I’m discovering that I LOVE. They include:

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Yes Daphne… I hate and love you at the same time for turning me on to this site…. these are the cutest shoes EVER.

and these are a close second.

Pippi, you ain’t got nothin on me!

I wish I could live in the moment and not regret
I’m not sure how to make it stop, the constant hum of sorrow.
I’ve forgiven, and I’m grateful for the lessons I’ve learned
I just don’t know how to live again, in this moment.
This is my constant battle.
To live, not just exist.

Kids Must Take Classes from a Black Teacher

Kids Must Take Classes from a Jew Teacher

Kids Must Take Classes from Christian Teacher

Kids Must Take Classes from Asian Teacher

Kids Must Take Classes from Disabled Teacher

Kids Must Take Classes from Blind Teacher

Why isn’t this considered offensive?

Kids Must Take Classes from Transsexual Teacher

and

School Refuses Student Transfers from Transsexual Teacher’s Classroom

Also, I find it amusing and typical that neither site allows comments. Obviously they don’t like debate, then they would have to support their arguments with something besides rhetoric.