Hearing You
N……god..you have grown. If there is one thing I hope for you…is that you know I love you. I love your laugh…and your smile. Im sorry…I know this is all hard for you to understand. I couldnt live this lie anymore…I spent 34 years denying who I am….to myself…and others. Your mother gave me a choice…she said if I moved away …that I wouldnt have any contact with you…and I shouldnt consider myself your father. I had to move…it was a matter of life or death for me. I hope you can someday understand that. I sit here with my father in the ground..dead for the past 25 years. I would rather him have been a transsexual than dead….Again, I dont expect you to understand now. ….i just hope you know your loved…and I will never stop being,
Dad.
