Yoga with a T
I recently came across a yoga instructor that’s on a friends networking list that I belong to. I jumped at the chance to ask her some questions. She was very kind and quick to respond. My follow up suprised even me. I said:
“It’s a strange path I’m on, for sure. As I look at the sand beneath my feet I only see a few other footprints intersecting with mine. I consider myself spiritual, but I’m an atheist.
I’m not really concerned with money as much as I am concerned with intimacy. I’ll give you an example. I once sat in on an aerobics class at the local YMCA. It reminded me of something off of Seinfeld. I could barely keep up and the seemingly repetitive motions would cause me to go into fits. I couldn’t wait to get out of there, without making a scene.
I’m trans, so I’ve always had a discomfort with my body. I’ve always felt like a “klutz.” I’m not sure the two are related, but they’ve always seemed to go together. An example: I love to dance. But there are very few times I dance in public. I feel such a phobia about people seeing me, I guess. Seeing my clumsiness. Seeing me.
So, with that being said, I don’t know what the hell I’m looking for. Safety? The idea of being in a space with other people seeing my awkwardness scares the hell out of me. It always has. But I’ll never make it past this if I don’t try, if I don’t at least look changing it.
Growth. Such a wonderfully scary thing to do. But growth is life.”
tranny moments | admin March 16, 2007
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By Shae, March 17, 2007 @ 9:53 pm
Have you done yoga before? Are you in Indy? I’ve gone to all people yoga in Nora before, admittedly only a couple of times though I keep meaning to go back, and I find it very comfortable and welcoming.
By Marti Abernathey, March 18, 2007 @ 9:33 am
Never done it before, and yes I’m in Indy. I think I’ve found someone that’s willing to take me on one on one, at least for a bit. My problem is that I’m extremely phobic about the whole thing….